The Tribe of Cacao

Hey 😘

I am sitting on the 10 hour journey bus and my thoughts are circling around. The landscapes through the windows take my breath away. Rain really suits Mexico. All the mountains are huged in lush green trees and little colourful peeks of the houses give an idea of people living nearby.

I try to imagine these places hundreds and thousands years ago. I always do that while travelling. In fact I love travelling slow, in buses, sometimes uncomfortable but always pleasing my adventurous spirit. It is like a deep meditation retreat with ocassional phone distractions 🤪

Maybe that is why I keep on travelling, keep on hitch hiking, keep on climbing high and low, keep on savouring this amazing life.

Around this time last year I released into the world my "Tribu Del Cacao" project, my little bean to bar chocolates and cacao dream I still am walking with.

It has shown me new colours of life, it deepened my faith and oh oh my it taught me so many lessons.

It taught me patience. Delays in post, lost cacao beans, low number of clients all were part of the patience story.

It taught me to trust. That whatever is meant for you, will never pass you by. And things passed, offers, new opportunities, collaborations. However, what was truly for me, stayed. And I smell new bright doors opening in the future.

It taught me that passion sometimes need rekindling. And that meant pauses for my other hobbies and passions. If you are like me, with talents and joys in all directions, you will know what I mean.

It taught me to let go my perfectionism. Over and over. When labels just didn't have enough print to be read or the beans came too much fermented or the chocolates in full sugar bloom (people from my recent workshop, you know it 🤗).

It taught me to be brave and confident, to open myself in new directions not only as an alchemist, artist and producer but as a teacher too. And last sunday, my first out of many future workshops, proved me new powers laying within myself.

It taught me to be present, play and breath. As a Virgo Sun and ex top student at school I sometimes get too worried about details and results losing that precious present moment that is a key to my fullfilment. For some reason my "Tribu Del Cacao" project gives me some mysterious power to go beyond all my old programing.

The list goes on.

And I feel like the most wonderful feeling is to observe how through my hands and dreams, together with the spirit of cacao my chocolates and cacao reaches so many hearts with lots of inspiration then to follow their dreams. And that is my human mission. Right now is with cacao, who knows for how long I will be co creating with that Queen of the Underworld but one thing I know is that I keep walking the path of my heart.

And now it is time to enjoy the magical Tepoztlán mountains

Keep on dreaming and co creating ❤️

Ligita

Leo Energy Around

Hey you who still reads this 💙

Living according to the seasons of each astrological sign is really fun. Makes me connect with each sign and discover the strengths of each wonderful sign. I love it!

Since my last writing here in this space (can you believe that I have been writing consistently here for the last 10 years ?!?) I have lived in emotional, homy energy of Cancer and then expressive and confident Leo. 

When I came back from the desert I was very shaken. I wanted to pack my bags and go. I felt like a poor little me struggling with money and my business. I felt lonely, without a tribe, uff, had some integration to do. And like a good friend recommended I sat down with myself. 

What makes me run, what makes me feel lonely, where within myself I still don't love myself enough so I crave external to fill up that gap. I felt like I wanted to cry but the tears were not coming so watching/distracting myself with sad insta or youtube videos I could finally cry. Do you resonate?

Well, at some point something got unblocked, I could cry (without videos!) and I felt deep clarity within myself. The wisdom and the stregth of the desert was still within me. I closed some doors that were very brave of me to do and created space. Space for new energy, new relationship, new moments.

So when the Leo season kicked in (and still is going on) I was ready to shine. To produce beautiful chocolates, to connect with people, to create new strategies, to open new doors, to express myself fully and shine in my confidence. Suddenly the victim role within me disappeared, suddenly I was not lonely anymore, suddenly I felt tribe, suddenly all the good things started to come towards me.

I still though managed to crack my tooth and my skin is keep communicating something to me that I still haven't uncoded. But life feels so much more sunny. I feel that power within me, I feel connected to all and nothing. 

Feels good right now. So I enjoy. Because the Virgo season is on its way, my sign, my stage. Lots of cleansing within is waiting ahead with strong devotion so I better enjoy the expressiveness and authenticity that Leo brings ✨

I love you 💙

My dear Mexico

Mi querido México,

It's been now over a year that I breathed your air.

Why are you here in Mexico? I get that asked pretty often by locals.

I think as a person representing tiny little country somewhere north east in Europe I am like an exotic fish in a tank.

And no I didn't come for some cheap land by the ocean to spend the rest of my retired life. Nor did I follow a man seduced by his nice words. Or stayed for comfy good weather.

I moved around for many years, always with a curiosity, open heart and spontaneity. I followed my passions, new smells, new experiences. It felt like home wherever I chose to be.

Not that everything was like a smooth texture in my life. I fell over many times, sometimes with big bruises and sometimes deep wounds.

But this gift of listening to my own dreams kept me rewarded. With people, situations, loves.

When I came to Mexico for the first time my inner world was projected right at me. I didn't like what I saw. So I travelled a bit here and a bit there.

When I healed what I needed to heal at that time I gave Mexico second chance. And that was it.

Mexico seduced me like the most passionate lover giving you kisses on your neck and holding tight in his arms at night.

And like Pandora box, everything started to open for me.

I sensed this incredible mystical side of it, charged by huge ancient civilizations, witches and wizards who charged this land with their magical powers.

I sensed so many lessons coming right at me. 

Ability to be content in whatever I am. Whether I am in a cold rain, burning sun or deep loneliness.

The ability to stand up whether I am crashed by emotions or a huge hurricane outside.

To take it slow. To be patient. To let go when it is too much of the fight.

To confront the robber in front of me with a gun looking into my eyes.

To live simply but in full power.

To give gratitude, not because that is so trendy in cacao circles but because you really have no idea what comes tomorrow.

To give way. To an elderly or a pregnant lady in a cramped hot microbus, not because they can't but because I still can.

Not to give so much importance to the outside. Whether it is chicken or barking dog or some cringy tune played out loud. Still working on this one.

To smile, to talk back, even when some think I am just a gringo who can't speak back to them in spanish.

Mexico has given me fruit of all sort. There are also so many tough things that happen around. Paradise is the inner state and from time to time I get to see some dark shit too.

So why am I here after so many years on my travels. After so many countries that blew my mind?

I guess this time of my life is about building some deep foundations and Mexico just mysteriously called me here.

The right place at the right time. Like everything in this life. Already mystically orchestrated for you.

With so much gratitude and love to this incredible land,

Ligita