Connected

Hey friends,

Very likely this is my last post of 2025. 

As I just woke up from a delicious nap in my new hammack in the terrace I am reminded of softness around me. 

In a ray of sunshine that squeezes through the leafs of the palm tree.

In a gentle December breeze reminding me of winter here in subtropics.

In a laughter of a neighbour.

In my attitude choosing to see beauty everywhere.

This last month Universe, God and my Cosmic team have gifted me so much. 

After a long nothingness, inner work, struggles, doubts and low times I received a friendship of two special souls that reminded me of that inner wild woman inside, community and tribal belonging, play, safe space, true connection and deep conversations.

December brought me a lot of chocolate sales, another fantastic chocolate making workshop and a lot of community spirit.

I know that something shifted within me to attract all this. So I bow to that Ligita. Who courageously is choosing freedom, growth, who falls down and then gets up. With more clarity, ease, softness.

I am not going to fully reflect on my year here. My journals are full of my reflexions but I just want to say that this year has been profoundly challenging. The experiment of stability have broken lots of parts of me. 

I have changed. I understood what means to stand up and respect myself. My direction got clearer. Some souls entered into my path, some left. I have cried of deep loneliness and boredom just to find a stronger faith to that Universal Force that never leaves you alone. 

My loud chattiness got washed by profound silence moments. I got gifted wisdom in that.

I fell down and got up, learning to find out that discomfort brings true freedom.

I have griefed parts of me that just does not serve me anymore, leaving some labels behind.

I listened.

I looked deeper into my fears. Of financial insecurity, of death, of abandonment, of rejection, of deep wounds coming from my childhood, conditionings and deep ancestral traumas. I am still walking that path.

But behind this beautiful human Ligita, I started to pay attention to something way deeper and stronger than just this chosen body. 

And without all this discomfort I would have never experienced it as strongly as I do now.

I am so abundant.

I am so touched by the fullness of this life.

I am so proud of my soul choosing to experience all this.

Light and dark.

I hope you too open the doors to growth.

I love you for reading me and connecting.

Till the next post ❤️

Last Weeks of the Quiet

Hi friend,

Happy full moon.

This October has been full of reflexions, new unexpected turns in my life, running and breathing. 

I was very close to get married (another story to tell hehe) and the last weeks of it everything got upside down. 

Now, as a believer of the higher creative force I know that it happened for a reason and for my higher good. However, I still managed to suffer a bit, feel friend's betrayal and sadness. It also gave me freedom to look at the things more openly and have less fears. My marriage, by the way was a plan for something uncommon ☺️ 

So I sat with all this sadness and let it pass through me. It felt stingy.

October was also a lot about running. I managed to get the 4th place between women in trail run of 13 km which made me feel super proud of myself and motivated to continue my runs. I dived deeper into traditional hatha yoga and followed the steps to work with my energy and clarify my mind.

I also reflected on relationships I had, the patterns I noticed, the categories of men I fell for and clarified within myself that I am ready for a comitted partnership where the other sees relationship as an opportunity to spiritually evolve, grow and create together something bigger than just one person can.

After so many years of wandering around my soul seems to be ready for depth in all aspects of my life.

I also noticed that my connection to the creator, the higher force got back in my life supporting me through lows and highs. I became friends with solitude and found peace with the worlds/mine problems. Somehow a lot of puzzle pieces got together and I could finally see a clear image.

Now sitting here and writing all this makes me smile, as I feel that I came out of that deep shadow work to see the light again. To be a child again, to play, to laugh. In the shadows of the dark I also learnt that I have nowhere to go, nothing to do. That I am in a right place at a right time. That I chose all this and that soul only wants to know the true being. That my state of being is something I can become Master of and everything else are just details. So do I choose freedom or suffering? Easy to write, I know. But I try to walk this talk too. 

So yeah, happy to be alive, happy to be digging into the dark night of my soul or whatever that was, happy to breathe and be in a right place, right time. Nowhere to go, noone to be ❤️

September Detox

Hi dear soul who reads this ❤️

I don't know if something stirs up in me because I was born on the Equinox in September but I swear this month always brings me so much discomfort, transformation and depth.

This year it continued its legacy.

The month started fun. I fell in love with the mountains around Tepoztlán, met some cool new people, had an epic adventurous roadtrip with my friend but then everything started to feel like the storm.

I started to be so overwhelmed. My scrolling habit got worse and I found too much noise out there in the waters of the internet. So many opinions, so many attention seeking people, talking more than they actually do or listen. Teaching things they have never experienced truly themselves.

So it was time to detox.

For me to quit is not so hard. I like the extremes, they have sharp edges and I understand their structures. But the balance on the other hand requires softness, flow and that doesn't always feel easy for me. But at least I shut the noise from the external.

And I found myself without any distraction sitting in the abyss of nothingness. Old fears that were formed by traumatic events in my childhood started to creep in. I saw this fearful, worrying side of myself that I don't like to show in the public. 

And I looked at it. The tears rolled down my cheeks. What is the sense in all of that? How can life can be so different. One moment you are flying down the abyss in the speed of the lightening and the other moment being in a complete bliss in awe of life's perfectly orchestrated melody. I guess that is a duality of life.

So I studied a bit of my own shadow this month. Thanks to the detox of my phone I had no quick exits. Highly recommend you that.

And when I came out of it, I felt more power flowing through me, more life force, focus, direction. My birthday opened new doors for my 35th year on this planet in this body of mine.

And as every year, I put a theme for it.

This year is COURAGE.

Courage to break my own limitations.

Courage to look deeply into the eyes of fear.

Courage to love myself truly and unconditionally.

Courage to take day at a time.

Courage to commit, to build, to create.

Courage to heal.

Courage to let go so I can create a new space for new things.

Courage to show all of myself. 

Courage to accept the help.

Courage to change a course 180 degree if needed.

Courage to be vulnerable, not only speaking but in action.

Courage.

I feel good now looking back at September. It has been quite transformational. And I am happy and looking forward to see what October brings.

Life feels soft and open at the moment ❤️