Hello dear ones,
It is quite unbelievable to me that I spent nearly 3 months in my homeland Lithuania.
And it all started in Mexico.
I fell in love with Mexico like a crazy teenager and could not imagine myself going back to Europe. And don't get me wrong, I love Europe, especially the South, but some deep connection with the land of the cactus was keeping me there.
I did miss my mum a lot. I just imagined that if I don't come back, I get to see her in another year, and two years with no physical contact is just way too much for me. Leaded by that emotional string towards my mum I came back.
Little did I know that my so well planned summer in Europe will change its course.
Just few days before leaving Lithuania problems in my family that were always there got in the surface and I found my mother hopeless and asking for a moral support in her relationship crisis. I could not say no.
Mexico taught me confidence and spontanuity so I decided to stay with my mum and go through whatever needed to be healed or transformed.
And with that decision came a lot of healing within. I spent a whole month living with my mum and seeing the clearest mirror. I saw myself in her and found an acceptance within. I glued some broken parts within and felt my family and roots. I made peace with Lithuania.
And then my job was done. So I packed my bag and went to the festival to volunteer and celebrate. And very simbolically on my last night there I slipped on the rake before jumping over the fire and fell into the fire. Lucky star I am because I managed to roll over my burning self and put off the fire with black coal and sand. My Mexico clothes have saved me from a big burn, but one leg of mine got it pretty badly.
I wonder why I fell into the fire. Was I too burnt out in this festival? Was there a symbolical end of this chapter? Was I jumping into the danger without focus and alertness? Or perhaps, it is all that. I don't know. I just know that everything happens for a reason. And I am extremely grateful that it all ended not so badly. Feeling protected.
My bags are nearly packed. I fly to Greece tomorrow. And I fly with so much more growth and acceptance within. I take with me all the deep new friendships I made and I take my roots. I am happy I came back to Lithuania this summer. And I am also happy to continue walking my free spirit path. Life has been intense recently and all is welcome.
With a lot of fire,
Ligita
