I walked around the town today. And Mexico again took my heart under its spell.
Now, I am not in a crazy beautiful Pacific ocean beach town with cacao and mangoes and coconuts around. Of course that too took my heart many months ago :)
I have been staying in a cloudy, rainy and tiny bit cold part of Mexico. And you know what, I still feel like a teenager in love.
There is something magical about the genuine mentality of a mexican. I try to find words to express that sweetness, that welcoming feeling I get to experience anywhere I am in Mexico.
The words 'bienvenida a Mexico' (welcome to Mexico) have been repeated to me so many times and in so many situations that it got deeply rooted in my heart.
Yes, there is a lot of alcoholism, drugs problems here, machismo, plastic overuse, animal abuse, rubish, general ignorance BUT!
I feel that generally speaking mexicans know how to take the most of what they have, which fascinates every time and inspires me to accept change, in whatever way it goes. They are also so totally love romantics, so many creations, songs, art, books come from that space. Yes, a bit of drama queens and kings, but that intensity just gives extra spice to this country.
These last weeks I have been visiting my friends. The ones that pass by, the locals and the ones like me, totally in love with this country. I am one very lucky girl to have beautiful friends all around the world. 🙏
After so many years moving around I feel that Mexico has opened its big wide loving arms to me and energetically I already feel like I started living here. But in the meantime I moved around to see my loved ones and feel which part of this huge incredible country I wanna come back to in April.
I had some painful problems with my teeth again and my mouth now has an extra art piece of Mexico 🤣
I have also been emotionally struggling and dealing with attachment pain, some jealousy, control and all the beauty you get if your astrological chart is full of scorpio 😂
My life is full of beauty but like everybody I have my lessons of life and some weeks in October have been dark and painful. But hey, without experiencing low, you will never enjoy the high.
The situation in the Middle East made me question our humanity a lot. October in general felt quite dark for me. And I think it is important to talk about it.
While sitting there in those dark moments of attachment pain, loneliness and sadness I learnt something.
I learnt that meditation is the medicine and awareness is a tool to freedom. With awareness comes acceptance. Acceptance liberates. When I accept the sad, the dark, the pain, the ugly, there is no more clinging to it- that means the end of suffering.
Also, when I am in my high, in my light, in the pleasure, in the flow of everything, I should try surrender to it's temporal beauty. Not hold on to it but fully experience it without any future hopes or wishes.
If I want to be free, I must be aware. Everything that takes me away from the awareness is a challenge for me. But at the end, I am the one riding the horse. I am the one in power.
The power is not to reject all the obstacles and challenges but navigate through them.
And rejection is just another way not to accept what already is. It's very close to disillussioning yourself.
Life is full of everything. Acceptance liberates me but that doesn't mean I am passive.
I have to find my way of helping others,my way of activism in life. But without acceptance, activism will never function.
When I accept what is, I then can procceed to 'how'.
From that space, comes true power and change. And there lies the infinite secrets of life.
The pain taught me something. And for now I still got some days to enjoy my beloved sweet intense loving Mexico.
With depth and love,
ligita
