Hello dear ones.
I have been silent here for some time now.
It's been nearly one month that I left Mexico and head to Costa Rica. If some of you were wondering I am here for some time to cook some beautiful nutritious vegan food, nurture my soul, meet other wonderful souls and immerse myself in nature.
These last weeks have been quite tough for me. I have been following the conflict and the genocide in Palestine. Like so many others I felt so hopeless in this situation, so sad and devastated, angry and thoughtful. So many people in this world talk, seek, walk towards their own peace so it is very natural for all of us to be really upset. Because however cliche it may sound, indeed, we are one family. What hurts you, hurts me.
I have been overdosing the social media time as well which didn't let me to find balance within myself. So the nature helped me a lot. Part of me felt guilty to live my beautiful life while so many suffer. But then I would remind myself to take and feel what is in the present instead of analyzing who is wrong and who is right. So I would cry of sadness, let that emotion pass and then move on with beauty and creation, whether it's in food, art or music. I would also try to share and speak up from that space. Not to preach or blame anybody but just use social media as a platform of sharing what is alive within me.
Some days were not as balanced but some days I could find the good balance between my own privileged life and staying truth to my own feelings about this situation. I looked at the shooting star night and I was in awe of this life. I saw the beauty of this life with pain and happiness and secretely wished that every shooting star would free people from suffering. And that was simply my part. I looked at the videos of strong palestinians even in suffer finding some kind of appreciation and celebration in life. And it inspired me. Like my good friend told me, if you believe in God, you will never lose that sparkle within. And these souls were and are truly inspirations. Of course, I also questioned, how can I help, so far from everything, so far from that commercial standard way of living. And I still question. But I know inside, that expressing my own feeling and speaking up through art and music is the closest answer to my ongoing questions. At least for now.
I had some waves of wonderful connection with spirits here in Costa Rica. I got reminded once more, how powerful meditation can be. To understand myself, to observe and to receive guiding from that force around that spins this world. Never underestimate that time to be in silence with yourself. I also have been put in challenging situations where the group I cooked for were pushing all my boundaries and projecting their own insecurities. That helped me to deepen my self confidence and trust within, but that wasn't so easy. So these weeks brought a lot of depth. The powerful thing is that because I really enjoy my life, my work, the people I am around, the place, I could stay strong with all those emotions surrounding me. It's like for all these 14 years of travelling around I built some strong foundations in order from time to time to be shaken but still stand strong like a tree. And if I could give any advice, that would be it. Find what you love, follow doing it, observe yourself and meditate, serve others reminding yourself that we are all big family and I think when the hardships come to your life, it is easier to navigate through them.
And now, I feel like the end of 2023 is approaching. Many things to reflect on. My year where I was exploring and learning the topic of Power. And boy, the Universe brought me so many insights and experiences. But I feel like that deserves another blog post.
For now, my friends, walk your paths of truth, share with other and remember, we are all big family. What hurts you, hurts me. Let's act from the space of the heart, it never lies. ❤️🇵🇸
