Reflexions in Costa Rica

Hello dear ones. 

I have been silent here for some time now.

It's been nearly one month that I left Mexico and head to Costa Rica. If some of you were wondering I am here for some time to cook some beautiful nutritious vegan food, nurture my soul, meet other wonderful souls and immerse myself in nature.

These last weeks have been quite tough for  me. I have been following the conflict and the genocide in Palestine. Like so many others I felt so hopeless in this situation, so sad and devastated, angry and thoughtful. So many people in this world talk, seek, walk towards their own peace so it is very natural for all of us to be really upset. Because however cliche it may sound, indeed, we are one family. What hurts you, hurts me.

I have been overdosing the social media time as well which didn't let me to find balance within myself. So the nature helped me a lot. Part of me felt guilty to live my beautiful life while so many suffer. But then I would remind myself to take and feel what is in the present instead of analyzing who is wrong and who is right. So I would cry of sadness, let that emotion pass and then move on with beauty and creation, whether it's in food, art or music. I would also try to share and speak up from that space. Not to preach or blame anybody but just use social media as a platform of sharing what is alive within me.  

Some days were not as balanced but some days I could find the good balance between my own privileged life and staying truth to my own feelings about this situation. I looked at the shooting star night and I was in awe of this life. I saw the beauty of this life with pain and happiness and secretely wished that every shooting star would free people from suffering. And that was simply my part. I looked at the videos of strong palestinians even in suffer finding some kind of appreciation and celebration in life. And it inspired me. Like my good friend told me, if you believe in God, you will never lose that sparkle within. And these souls were and are truly inspirations. Of course, I also questioned, how can I help, so far from everything, so far from that commercial standard way of living. And I still question. But I know inside, that expressing my own feeling and speaking up through art and music is the closest answer to my ongoing questions. At least for now. 

I had some waves of wonderful connection with spirits here in Costa Rica. I got reminded once more, how powerful meditation can be. To understand myself, to observe and to receive guiding from that force around that spins this world. Never underestimate that time to be in silence with yourself. I also have been put in challenging situations where the group I cooked for were pushing all my boundaries and projecting their own insecurities. That helped me to deepen my self confidence and trust within, but that wasn't so easy. So these weeks brought a lot of depth. The powerful thing is that because I really enjoy my life, my work, the people I am around, the place, I could stay strong with all those emotions surrounding me. It's like for all these 14 years of travelling around I built some strong foundations in order from time to time to be shaken but still stand strong like a tree. And if I could give any advice, that would be it. Find what you love, follow doing it, observe yourself and meditate, serve others reminding yourself that we are all big family and I think when the hardships come to your life, it is easier to navigate through them. 

And now, I feel like the end of 2023 is approaching. Many things to reflect on. My year where I was exploring and learning the topic of Power. And boy, the Universe brought me so many insights and experiences. But I feel like that deserves another blog post. 

For now, my friends, walk your paths of truth, share with other and remember, we are all big family. What hurts you, hurts me. Let's act from the space of the heart, it never lies. ❤️🇵🇸

Mexico, Friends, Dentists and in Betweens

I walked around the town today. And Mexico again took my heart under its spell.

Now, I am not in a crazy beautiful Pacific ocean beach town with cacao and mangoes and coconuts around. Of course that too took my heart many months ago :)

I have been staying in a cloudy, rainy and tiny bit cold part of Mexico. And you know what, I still feel like a teenager in love.

There is something magical about the genuine mentality of a mexican. I try to find words to express that sweetness, that welcoming feeling I get to experience anywhere I am in Mexico.

The words 'bienvenida a Mexico' (welcome to Mexico) have been repeated to me so many times and in so many situations that it got deeply rooted in my heart.

Yes, there is a lot of alcoholism, drugs problems here, machismo, plastic overuse, animal abuse, rubish, general ignorance BUT!

I feel that generally speaking mexicans know how to take the most of what they have, which fascinates every time and inspires me to accept change, in whatever way it goes. They are also so totally love romantics, so many creations, songs, art, books come from that space. Yes, a bit of drama queens and kings, but that intensity just gives extra spice to this country.

These last weeks I have been visiting my friends. The ones that pass by, the locals and the ones like me, totally in love with this country. I am one very lucky girl to have beautiful friends all around the world. 🙏

After so many years moving around I feel that Mexico has opened its big wide loving arms to me and energetically I already feel like I started living here. But in the meantime I moved around to see my loved ones and feel which part of this huge incredible country I wanna come back to in April.

I had some painful problems with my teeth again and my mouth now has an extra art piece of Mexico 🤣

I have also been emotionally struggling and dealing with attachment pain, some jealousy, control and all the beauty you get if your astrological chart is full of scorpio 😂

My life is full of beauty but like everybody I have my lessons of life and some weeks in October have been dark and painful. But hey, without experiencing low, you will never enjoy the high.

The situation in the Middle East made me question our humanity a lot. October in general felt quite dark for me. And I think it is important to talk about it.

While sitting there in those dark moments of attachment pain, loneliness and sadness I learnt something.

I learnt that meditation is the medicine and  awareness is a tool to freedom. With awareness comes acceptance. Acceptance liberates. When I accept the sad, the dark, the pain, the ugly, there is no more clinging to it- that means the end of suffering.

Also, when I am in my high, in my light, in the pleasure, in the flow of everything, I should try surrender to it's temporal beauty.  Not hold on to it but fully experience it without any future hopes or wishes.

If I want to be free, I must be aware. Everything that takes me away from the awareness is a challenge for me. But at the end, I am the one riding the horse. I am the one in power.

The power is not to reject all the obstacles and challenges but navigate through them.

And rejection is just another way not to accept what already is. It's very close to disillussioning yourself.

Life is full of everything. Acceptance liberates me but that doesn't mean I am passive.

I have to find my way of helping others,my way of activism in life. But without acceptance, activism will never function.

When I accept what is, I then can procceed to 'how'.

From that space, comes true power and change. And there lies the infinite secrets of life.

The pain taught me something. And for now I still got some days to enjoy my beloved sweet intense loving Mexico.

With depth and love,

ligita