In Love with Life: September Detox

Hi dear soul who reads this ❤️

I don't know if something stirs up in me because I was born on the Equinox in September but I swear this month always brings me so much discomfort, transformation and depth.

This year it continued its legacy.

The month started fun. I fell in love with the mountains around Tepoztlán, met some cool new people, had an epic adventurous roadtrip with my friend but then everything started to feel like the storm.

I started to be so overwhelmed. My scrolling habit got worse and I found too much noise out there in the waters of the internet. So many opinions, so many attention seeking people, talking more than they actually do or listen. Teaching things they have never experienced truly themselves.

So it was time to detox.

For me to quit is not so hard. I like the extremes, they have sharp edges and I understand their structures. But the balance on the other hand requires softness, flow and that doesn't always feel easy for me. But at least I shut the noise from the external.

And I found myself without any distraction sitting in the abyss of nothingness. Old fears that were formed by traumatic events in my childhood started to creep in. I saw this fearful, worrying side of myself that I don't like to show in the public.

And I looked at it. The tears rolled down my cheeks. What is the sense in all of that? How can life can be so different. One moment you are flying down the abyss in the speed of the lightening and the other moment being in a complete bliss in awe of life's perfectly orchestrated melody. I guess that is a duality of life.

So I studied a bit of my own shadow this month. Thanks to the detox of my phone I had no quick exits. Highly recommend you that.

And when I came out of it, I felt more power flowing through me, more life force, focus, direction. My birthday opened new doors for my 35th year on this planet in this body of mine.

And as every year, I put a theme for it.

This year is COURAGE.

Courage to break my own limitations.

Courage to look deeply into the eyes of fear.

Courage to love myself truly and unconditionally.

Courage to take day at a time.

Courage to commit, to build, to create.

Courage to heal.

Courage to let go so I can create a new space for new things.

Courage to show all of myself.

Courage to accept the help.

Courage to change a course 180 degree if needed.