Time Traveller

After 3 years in Latin America I am back visiting Europe. 

My trip was not as usual, I flew with my dear friend and her three doggies, lots of luggage, cacao and all my memories of Mexico lingering in each last mango, last manzana de coco, last sweat drop. The trip itself was a story but I just can say that life with doggies and transporting them all across the ocean can be sooooo stressful. Maybe that is why I am still choosing my freedom without any babies nor doggies 😂

Once the plane landed in Amsterdam, we rushed to our next destination and that night from a deep exhaustion I slept like a rock. Pure silence. Even the birds were so much quieter than in my messy loud Mexico.

When I am back in Europe I always try to do a little friend visiting tour before reaching my homeland Lithuania. This time was not an exception.

I could not choose better time to come back to Europe. She greeted me with blue skies, warm sunshine, birds chirping, flowers blooming and life full on awake after what seemed to be a long winter. 

I felt so strange though. In between the worlds, in between timezones and timelines. Here I was on the lands I know so well. But this time with a mexican heart. 

Everything is so different here but my beloved Mexico and my true teacher cacao taught me how to accept everything, how to see beauty in all. 

No trash around, cars all drive so in order, even cyclists follow the rules. The birds songs that brought familiarity of my summers here in the past, wild poppies and gosh soooooo many choices for my vegan self. Best food ever, Berlin why you were also so full of the most good looking people?!? How can I stay single here? 😂

I did not waste any time and went straight on swimming in my fresh water lakes. Naked with friends. Ohhh how much I missed being naked!

And as I am writing this on the bus from Berlin to Lithuania I reflect and digest what happened in this last week. My friends really opened their doors and hearts and the deep connection I experienced with all of them felt like the best welcome gift Europe could give me. 

I can smell wild summer already.

Next chapter - Lithuania. I will be here all June, so if you wanna dance and swim naked, I will be here 🌈

Sentimental

Today I woke up fresh and happy, did my morning practise, prepared cacao and went to my favourite spot in the beach. 

I watched the surfers gliding big waves and made a nickname to each. One was called Worm because of his insane flexible style and he was the best at reading the waves, every single wave was caught, true inspiration. Other one got nicknamed Sant Claus for his body type and such a funny board positioning. There was Kid, Spinning Ball and others. Fun game. 

I then read and wrote a bit and went to my favourite natural sea pool formed in the rocks and perfect only at a certain time of the day. I watched little fish and their reactions when I was peeing and the water consistency was changing :) 

I drove my motorbike and ate delicious fresh watermelon.

That is abundance. 

I know I get caught sometimes in illusion of separation, thinking I am lonely or don't have enough or am not enough or want more or this or that. But looking at this morning I feel so blessed. So connected. So grateful.

These weeks have been really in transition to me. I am packing my home that hold me so dearly, I am spending last days with beloved ones and doing all the things I will not be able doing when in Europe. 

In less than a week I will be on the european continent. 

And I am also realizing that the things I love I have always been doing or cultivating. Not just because it's my last week here. 

I always made space for the ocean, the sunsets, the swimming, seasonal fruit, time with friends, running, singing and dancing. I have heard and watched enough videos from people that regret not have lived in the moment and spend time doing what their hearts tell them to do. What a life!

So as the time is ticking and many shifts are happening within me I inhale and exhale, observe, listen and feel. For my busy planning mind that is the best medicine. 

I hope you breathe too.

Thank you for reading me ❤️

 

Change is The Only Constant

Sun kissed skin, delicious food in the belly, strong legs and body from running, open heart and clear mind. This is my present moment. And moments like that existed only few times this month.

I have been feeling so many strange feelings these past weeks. I felt repetition, I felt stuck, I felt like identity death, many triggers bringing things for me to transform, uff internal world has been pretty intense.

On the outside shell life has been treating me with a lot of reunions, gatherings and social time. I felt so much fun dancing around and truly apreciated time with my beloved ones.

And in the air, like a bird I started feeling the change.

When you travel for many years you get to recognise that subtle shift, way before the obvious. And I griefed. Don't know what I exactly griefed for. Perhaps that part of Ligita that always said yes, or that thought that now I am responsible for many things or perhaps an idea about certain person that already flourished in my imagination way too fast.

I felt uncomfortable with those feelings inside. I wanted to escape them. Quick dopamine dose of my phone, delicious food soothing the sadness, doing instead of feeling. But sometimes I sat and looked within. What stories don't serve me anymore, who am I beyond the masks, roles and personality traits. 

Looking within is exhausting sometimes, because the more you are aware the more you are capable to feel. And since I am not a robot experiencing only one setting of experiences, some new ones arrive that I have no default settings for. Fun.

But anyway, I wanted to tell you something. Most of you already know.

In one months time after nearly 3 years in Latin America I am finally coming to visit my land Lithuania and Europe in general.

I am coming for a summer visit. To spend time with family and friends, drink cacao together, be in my forest and lakes and to work what I love and save some money. 

I am very open to unknown. The bird is leaving its nest for some time. Let's see what unfolds. 

See you in Europe ❤️