A Smell of Change

Hello you who reads this ✨

Today I was dealing with that loneliness and fear feeling once I smell the change coming. So I thought I will catch this melancholic feeling and put some words here in this sacred space of mine, my little blog.

First I want to say thanks to this social and action packed month. Aries season lived accordingly to this firey sign representing action, movement and fun.

I have attended beautiful gatherings, packed with music, dance, parties, friends and love. Like a little bee I managed to squeeze all in this month, my passionate work, a beautiful love story and friends. 

And like everything in life, the wind brings new beginnings and some endings too.

My beloved market I sell my babies at closed for a low season, some beautiful souls left the place I live in, certain things have changed with cacao beans I worked with for the last 8 months leading me to look for another bean and the village I live in slowly got emptier.

Now if you wanna know I am not leaving. For the first time in my life, well technically second :D I am staying through high and low. I am talking about places you guys. 

For so many years I have always lived high seasons. When places got empty I took my backpack and flew with the wind. And this time I am staying. Because my heart wants so. Because I trust that no matter how scary unknown can be I always have choice to change. Because my heart wants to keep co-creating with cacao, keep expanding, keep exploring this incredible country. Because this time I am the one looking at the things leaving. Because for now I choose consistency.

I have no idea how the low season will treat me and how I will manage to not only survive but thrive too but I guess I will take my risks. Because why not. Because what do I have to lose. Because I need to walk my talk.

But I still see those little fears sneaking in,that loneliness that creeps in, that not enough and wanting more feeling. I see them, I acknowledge them and together with this mad crazy ocean we wash them away.

I wish you beautiful Taurus season. This year I am living according to horoscope signs. So let's embrace the season of comfort,patience, sensuality, food, earth,grounding and pleasures. Mmmm.

I love you ♥️