Heyyyy you all,
I was about to write and update on my Gemini season and doubts and all that jazz I am going through right now but I just ate my Coconut Milk chocolate and it made me realize how long I haven't written about my love cacao in this blog.
I don't know if you realize but it has been one entire year that I committed to one dream of mine- to transform cacao bean and to continue exploring alchemy.
Well, this time last year after learning all I can in an amazing permaculture and cacao farm in Costa Rica I became trained chocolate maker. I then moved to my soul's country Mexico and started exploring the lands of Tabasco and Chiapas looking for the bean I wanna work with.
After a month I found her and then just by pure feeling moved to Guerrero state on the Pacific coast of Mexico.
I put everything in this dream. Because when I love something (or someone 😏) I go all the way.
Many years on the road taught me to trust my own path. To live life with philosophy that when you follow that sparkle within your heart the great Universe becomes your biggest ally.
This whole year of working or shall I say co-creating with cacao taught me a lot.
I dropped my judgements of how one should have or prepare their cacao. I learnt that there is so much marketing behind this noble, simple yet so magical bean. I started to run away from words like '"ceremony", "sacred", "empowering". Not because I don't believe them but because they changed the essence.
Cacao taught me of simplicity that lies in the heart of each one of us. She taught me how to be humble, how to gift and how to receive when time is right.
She showed me that her spirit lives in everything that is created with cacao. I watched people connecting with themselves and appreciating the present moment with a simple chocolate in their hand.
I created a bean-to-bar chocolate brand and every little part of this project has been made and thought by me. I was the one travelling to look for producers, the one ordering cacao to be sent from another region, the one paying the bills, grinding the beans, tempering, whole production. Creating the ratios of ingredients. The one cutting the papers, packaging, going to the city to get supplies, writing down the flavours, dealing with delays, dealing with cacao price nearly trippling. The one selling in the market in high season, talking with shop owner, connecting with cafes around, getting my chocolates in, finding private clients, delivering with my moto, wow. WHAT A JOURNEY! And everything from my home kitchen, in sub tropics with simple gear and bearly any savings. And on top of that doing it in a small very seasonal mexican village.
Now if that is not a dedication or some huge crush with cacao I don't know then what is that.
And yet I find myself in crossroads right now. I am trying to find a balance where my cacao creations and future projects have a right soil to grow. Expansion of my creativity is something I attend and guard very well.
So who knows what the future holds. All I can do is to listen within and keep following my intuition.
I am going to the desert next week. Time to talk with stars and cactus.
Keep on creating, keep on shining you all ❤️