Cacao, My Love

Heyyyy you all, 

I was about to write and update on my Gemini season and doubts and all that jazz I am going through right now but I just ate my Coconut Milk chocolate and it made me realize how long I haven't written about my love cacao in this blog.

I don't know if you realize but it has been one entire year that I committed to one dream of mine- to transform cacao bean and to continue exploring alchemy.

Well, this time last year after learning all I can in an amazing permaculture and cacao farm in Costa Rica I became trained chocolate maker. I then moved to my soul's country Mexico and started exploring the lands of Tabasco and Chiapas looking for the bean I wanna work with.

After a month I found her and then just by pure feeling moved to Guerrero state on the Pacific coast of Mexico.

I put everything in this dream. Because when I love something (or someone 😏) I go all the way. 

Many years on the road taught me to trust my own path. To live life with philosophy that when you follow that sparkle within your heart the great Universe becomes your biggest ally.

This whole year of working or shall I say co-creating with cacao taught me a lot. 

I dropped my judgements of how one should have or prepare their cacao. I learnt that there is so much marketing behind this noble, simple yet so magical bean. I started to run away from words like '"ceremony", "sacred", "empowering". Not because I don't believe them but because they changed the essence. 

Cacao taught me of simplicity that lies in the heart of each one of us. She taught me how to be humble, how to gift and how to receive when time is right.

She showed me that her spirit lives in everything that is created with cacao. I watched people connecting with themselves and appreciating the present moment with a simple chocolate in their hand.

I created a bean-to-bar chocolate brand and every little part of this project has been made and thought by me. I was the one travelling to look for producers, the one ordering cacao to be sent from another region, the one paying the bills, grinding the beans, tempering, whole production. Creating the ratios of ingredients. The one cutting the papers, packaging, going to the city to get supplies, writing down the flavours, dealing with delays, dealing with cacao price nearly trippling. The one selling in the market in high season, talking with shop owner, connecting with cafes around, getting my chocolates in, finding private clients, delivering with my moto, wow. WHAT A JOURNEY! And everything from my home kitchen, in sub tropics with simple gear and bearly any savings. And on top of that doing it in a small very seasonal mexican village.

Now if that is not a dedication or some huge crush with cacao I don't know then what is that.

And yet I find myself in crossroads right now. I am trying to find a balance where my cacao creations and future projects have a right soil to grow. Expansion of my creativity is something I attend and guard very well. 

So who knows what the future holds. All I can do is to listen within and keep following my intuition.

I am going to the desert next week. Time to talk with stars and cactus.

Keep on creating, keep on shining you all ❤️

Sensual Taurus Times

hello dear friends,

The Taurus season is nearly over. And like some of you know this year I am living with different sign energy each month. I dive into qualities of each sign and try to make decisions according to each sign. It's pretty fun. And I must say I have been loving Taurus season.

Of course I was also hanging out a lot with my favourite Taurus who gave a lot of butterflies in my belly and made me learn more.

I have fully indulged this month. With food, with love, with sensual activities and some deep comfort. I let myself be slower, more comfy, even some days lazy. I let myself watch things on my phone and really tried to enjoy them instead of feeling guilty. I slept in few yoga mornings. Well, but I also kept my direction on, like a good Taurus.

My life is about finding balance and I tend to be more on the productive side, always in action so these weeks felt actually delicious.

I accepted change of the season and instead of running like a headless chicken I gave myself some space. And quite literally because few days ago I moved into a new place. With so much more space, and air, and light, and trees.

For the first time in my life I am renting my own place by myself. Not living in a community, or sharing cramped room in the snowy Alps, or living in my job place in some awesome retreat centre. No, just me and my rent, haha. I don't know for how long this stage will last for me but in order to understand this life completely I guess I am experimenting with an unknown zone.

My chocolate making speed has slowed down. I tend to write more, got a bit back to playing guitar and I spent a lot of time by or in the Ocean.

The first rain already arrived, opening the pores of trees and my lungs. I get to experience clouds after so many months of blue skies. My lucid dreams come more often and it looks like I cocooned a bit in my little cute bubble.

And as this month approaches slowly to the end, I prepare myself to let another soul go and explore. And ohh, how much one part of me wants to hold on and not let go. But that's not how life works. We are all here walking our beautiful paths, sometimes paths intertwining and sometimes walking different directions. The beauty of following your heart and living in the presence.

So what will Gemini season gonna bring? This communicative, social and many faces sign might shake some things up. I guess I will be attending a lot of gatherings this month.

Let's see.

With much love,

Ligita

A Smell of Change

Hello you who reads this ✨

Today I was dealing with that loneliness and fear feeling once I smell the change coming. So I thought I will catch this melancholic feeling and put some words here in this sacred space of mine, my little blog.

First I want to say thanks to this social and action packed month. Aries season lived accordingly to this firey sign representing action, movement and fun.

I have attended beautiful gatherings, packed with music, dance, parties, friends and love. Like a little bee I managed to squeeze all in this month, my passionate work, a beautiful love story and friends. 

And like everything in life, the wind brings new beginnings and some endings too.

My beloved market I sell my babies at closed for a low season, some beautiful souls left the place I live in, certain things have changed with cacao beans I worked with for the last 8 months leading me to look for another bean and the village I live in slowly got emptier.

Now if you wanna know I am not leaving. For the first time in my life, well technically second :D I am staying through high and low. I am talking about places you guys. 

For so many years I have always lived high seasons. When places got empty I took my backpack and flew with the wind. And this time I am staying. Because my heart wants so. Because I trust that no matter how scary unknown can be I always have choice to change. Because my heart wants to keep co-creating with cacao, keep expanding, keep exploring this incredible country. Because this time I am the one looking at the things leaving. Because for now I choose consistency.

I have no idea how the low season will treat me and how I will manage to not only survive but thrive too but I guess I will take my risks. Because why not. Because what do I have to lose. Because I need to walk my talk.

But I still see those little fears sneaking in,that loneliness that creeps in, that not enough and wanting more feeling. I see them, I acknowledge them and together with this mad crazy ocean we wash them away.

I wish you beautiful Taurus season. This year I am living according to horoscope signs. So let's embrace the season of comfort,patience, sensuality, food, earth,grounding and pleasures. Mmmm.

I love you ♥️